I dictate a message to you on fb –
explaining how much I still love you,
and that I never meant to hurt you.
I do another one, to another lover…. very similar, but different.
Mute/I am a wrecking ball.
Unmute/fight with the husband: you were behind the barn smoking…
Mute/{I am/are drinking
too much, so bad woman, admit it},
Unmute/I admit nothing.
Zooooom angry:
I am stretching out now;
I am wearing pink sweatpants, and only a jog bra,
menopause hot
Unmuted/you write- you tell me,
I’m amazing, a good mother, sexy even for the ripe old age of 44…
Mute/Omg I’m so horny…
U inspire me to drink harder…
I’ve gained 20 pounds since you last fucked me.
Unmute/is momma gonna die?
Mute their fear/no my loves/momma is fine;
momma will always be here…4u
Turn off the video feed: I am letting
the children believe that
I will not die.
They love me as the massive failure
I’ve become/am.
It’s fucking beautiful.
Mute/planning in my mind when to pour the wine….
Unmute/for Telehealth psych call at 3pm.
She is so smart and composed.
So… how are you?
Mute/I’m fine… No. Not drinking.
Not smoking.
Video tears drippingdripping/
Reiterating:::
I’m fine
I’m fine
I’m fine
