Category: Emotional Health
After the Breakdown
If I had not exploded, I would never have found my fuse. I would not know where my dynamite is stored or who I should let light my fire. If I didn’t fall apart, I never could have known the brilliance of love, the pain of ignorance or the power of Read more
Her
A rare chance to leave work early, and pick my youngest child up afterschool. Parents I recognize only vaguely, cluster in the playground, some talking in groups, others marginalised, standing alone on the periphery. I stare into my phone, looking preoccupied, the stark divisions shredding my nerves with anxiety. She’s Read more
Hidden
Uncomfortable silence and gasping thoughts become strangled sentences… I may not be able to articulate how I feel in a language that you can understand, because I am busy fighting my way back. Back from the red, black sparkling clouds that dance their way in my heart and mind carrying Read more
Fishes
I have always felt that humans were like the sea- the unfathomable girth of their chests as they inhale the decadence of their families, the expansive ripples in their eyes like the tides washing over their moral sense, polluted in plastic the sea bass trying to breathe through polythene, coral Read more
Ha
“Ha I ate” I said to Ana “Ha today you did tomorrow will be different just you wait and see” Photo Credit: katie_mccolgan Flickr via Compfight cc
Am I a Stuck Up Little Bitch?
I just learned I have a reputation as a recluse – a reputation I hate. It’s true, I’m easily intimidated by colleagues and acquaintances who are younger, stronger, braver, more outgoing, better educated and better looking than me. When I feel demoralized – whether it’s real or imagined – I Read more
Falling Out
Will I stop disappearing if I get Botox, or whiten my teeth, or thicken my thinning hair with extensions? Will I stop disappearing if I highlight under my eyes or draw in my eyebrows? What if I strap on tights, a push-up bra and high heels? Will I stop disappearing Read more