anorexia – FEMININE COLLECTIVE

Ribbed

July 31, 2023July 31, 2023 Angela Townsend

You may be able to count my ribs. If we press through the fat to count yours, not one will be missing. I gave it back. I gave them all back: the rib, the ribs, the ring, the ringing in my ears. I would have given Eden to be your Read more

Fat Tuesday

October 10, 2022October 10, 2022 Emily Nelson

Layla tells us that she was down to 500 calories a day when she saw God. We’re all at Bri’s house, the four of us knee to knee and shivering because her mom turns off the heat at nine. The basement TV is paused in the middle of an episode Read more

Found Wanting: Burning With Anger, The Hidden Truth of Eating Disorders

January 23, 2019May 7, 2019 Christina Larocco

At my childhood best friend Ashley’s house, the pantry was big enough to sit in, and when we were bored, we did just that, eating whatever was around us. The pantry was long and narrow, cool and dark, with hardwood floors obscured by tins of flour and multi-flavored popcorn. It Read more

Ha

April 25, 2018October 15, 2018 Rachelle Cameron

“Ha I ate” I said to Ana “Ha today you did tomorrow will be different just you wait and see” Photo Credit: katie_mccolgan Flickr via Compfight cc

Solution

April 9, 2018October 15, 2018 Rachelle Cameron

I tell her “not today” I tell her “watch me eat” She chuckles “sure you will feel free to try” I breathe deeply She’s exhausting to fight she knows it Sometimes letting her have her way is the easiest solution to my problems Photo Credit: Dear, max Flickr via Compfight Read more

The Voice

March 14, 2018October 15, 2018 Rachelle Cameron

The voice is telling me “You’re worthless” “You’re unlovable” “Starve yourself then maybe you could actually succeed at something” It won’t stop It’s merged with mine I’m believing each lie Photo Credit: hansvandenberg30 Flickr via Compfight cc

Best Friend

January 30, 2018October 13, 2018 Rachelle Cameron

Anorexia She’s there when no-one else is She’s my late night conversations when I’m too hungry to sleep She’s keeping me calm as I lose control of my world She’s protecting me from everyone My best friend Photo Credit: AK Rockefeller Flickr via Compfight cc

And A Glimpse

October 20, 2017October 13, 2018 Paakhi Bhatnagar

All forms of desire that shouldn’t be desired slither into her young mind. No two thighs touching and the sighs they breath out: consulting. Cautious and crude the raw flakes are dancing. A fresh, soft bow plunged across a clean sky. Flowery revolts and nights spent cleaning after her messy Read more