Chasing the Sun

Don’t look down at your feet

The answers won’t magically appear

On some tiny telephone screen with videos buzzing megabytes and wasted seconds

A billion unknown faces

The unfamiliar bizarre millennial

Scrolling fast and furious

Thunderstorms and lightening threaten

Look up and out and dig deep

Go ahead look all around

I dare you

Eyes closed

Lift your face to the sky and cry

Right into the sun

Filling caverns of regret and sorrow

With sunflowers seeds and poppy go lightly emotion

No one is ever only happy

No one is only ever sad

The sun shines through your ratty tattered secondhand sweatshirt and the clouds loom

Your heavy, sighing shoulders

There’s an autumn chilly breeze

In the air

Rust colored leaves fall one by one

Slowly

Almost there

But not quite really

Turn around and crook your neck

In the opposite direction

Like the yellow sunflower stretches

Dancing dawn to dusk jumping ahead of her shadow

The fresh mango delights and uplifts the salivary senses

Summer sun is my absolute favorite gasp of breath

Chasing away the dreary blues

Leaving behind all the frigid heart-heavy feels

I am

Forever and always

Chasing the sun

Chasing her golden hues

In search of longing, warmth and wonder

Chilled under the spiteful clouds that cover the mood of the day

The impending rain

Go away now

Each drop a tear moistening my face and stiffening my bones

I will not let go of her brilliance, prematurely

Forever in search of a new yellow dawn

The blissful revolving and swirling reminder

No one is only ever happy

No one is only ever sad

Seasons come and go like it or not

Even in tropical temperatures

There is flooding waters and peril

Danger of drowning

Quietly mostly, and sometimes screaming

I am

Forever and always

In love with a beach and her ocean

Palm trees, wading pools and blistering heat

Her star shine warms the soul while the moon hums away the night

With the promise of a new dawn, blue sky and wide open spaces

I am wild and wistful and free

Under the glow and summertime glisten

I am now and forever just a girl

Somber in autumn and chilled to the bone come winter

I am forever happier under the warm rays

In love with the light

I am only ever mostly happy

Chasing the sun

 

Photo Credit: Kenneth@Vetter & Flickr

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A retired, international model, and celebrity makeup artist. Co-Author of Model Citi Zen, the guide. Founder of http://modelcitizenmakeup.blogspot.com/. Author of numerous prose pieces in various literary magazines. Most recently published in Little Episodes Brainstorms the anthology, among esteemed artists Sadie Frost, Melvin Burgess and Todd Swift.

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3 thoughts on “Chasing the Sun

  1. Thank you for all this beauty and longing for Light, Jackie. I’m with you. You’re a devotee of Hathor, Egyptian Sun Goddess. She’s also the Goddess of Love, Beauty, and Music. A good Goddess to know.

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