Humanity: Raw & Unfiltered
The voice is telling me “You’re worthless” “You’re unlovable” “Starve yourself then maybe you could actually succeed at something” It won’t stop It’s merged with mine I’m believing each lie Photo Credit: hansvandenberg30 Flickr via Compfight cc
Anorexia She’s there when no-one else is She’s my late night conversations when I’m too hungry to sleep She’s keeping me calm as I lose control of my world She’s protecting me from everyone My best friend Photo Credit: AK Rockefeller Flickr via Compfight cc
Fatty, fatty two by four, can’t fit through the kitchen door. Their names and faces are lost in history, but their words remain my constant truth. School yard chant buried deep under my skin, wrapped around my heart, that creeps through my brain, popping up like a boogey monster whenever Read more
As I sit here six months pregnant, I ponder about my life and what my existence has become. So many women have told me how beautiful the gift of life is, and “just wait until you look at your baby for the first time,” how magical it will be. It’s Read more
Picture it. It’s 4 pm on a Friday. I just drove 4 hours with two kids, working and trying to make to do lists in between the fighting and “are we there yet?” I can’t wait to get to the pool. As I walked there, sweating, lugging two kids, four Read more
I am no longer “too thin.” My clothes are no longer hanging from the bones protruding from my hips. I do not count ice cubes and broth as “meals” anymore. That does not mean that this addiction does not haunt me still. The disorder craves control. It is here with Read more
Recently I came across a study that was done on the emotional health of fashion models. The study found that 68% of fashion models say they suffer from anxiety and depression. (Unfortunately, I fell under this category.) Another 65% have been asked to lose weight by their agencies. Furthermore, 31% Read more